Killing me softly

Hi all,

Hoping you’re well wherever you are!

I’d like to believe I’m a very private person, with only a certain few having access to me & my thoughts. Of course, in goodness, others try to break through the high walls I’ve created around me, but I’m a tough cookie. Off late, I may have cut off from people even more. Sure I’m aware that speaking, opening up to people helps make one feel lighter, but I feel it’s temporary. Cuz honestly, others may listen, offer advice, but no one can really do anything more than that. What’s the point then?! I’d rather keep it all to myself, if I’m the only one who can do something about it, right?

Insomnia must be what it is I’m going through, but I’m no therapist. I was beginning to get used to it, having difficulty falling asleep at night, the overthinking doesn’t help either, but I was beginning to accept and deal with it. However now there’s this new pattern! I could be deep in slumber but a random thought, sound, imagination or memory is enough to break this sleep! I’m not talking about dreams (or nightmares). And this tends to happen early morning, a little before sunrise. Worse when it is accompanied by this slow but steadily arriving headache. It’s even more frustrating as you’re up and awake, your mind’s happily building on those unnecessary thoughts, and you’re consciously forcing yourself to stop thinking & fall asleep cuz you’ve got to get to work in literally a couple of hours! Anxiety could be the cause of it, I don’t know. But tossing and turning every night (and now mornings too) with this extremely uncomfortable feeling in your body, blood is unexplainably painful.

I don’t know why I’ve written this, maybe this is a terrible post, maybe it’s different from my regular writing, I honestly don’t know. But maybe this is my way of opening up, not to a particular friend, or to a particular family member. Maybe this is my way of expressing it and releasing it, maybe this will help feel lighter and maybe with this, sleeping peacefully may actually be a reality.

Here’s to me opening up to my own issues. Here’s to me accepting my flaws & imperfection. I’ve never tried to impress anyway, and with this I’m all the more re-emphasizing that I’ll deal with whatever it is myself, my way.

If you’ve actually read through, thank you!

Stay happy, healthy & blessed wherever you are.

Lots of love,

The Silent Hummer

Franchua D’Souza

Green Garden

Valentine’s day is soon approaching and I’m certain there are extremists when it comes to this day of Love. While I’m sure St. Valentine, the man behind whom this day is named, would be glad to see RED everywhere, this year I chose this beautiful emerald green dress from Jabong.

It has lace and has a satin belt which makes it look very dainty. I’m not sure if it will make the other lasses go green, but it’ll definitely make heads turn.
Since I couldn’t really wait until Valentines Day to mark it’s debut, I stuttered around in it for a dear friend’s wedding. It got me loads of compliments and considering green is not really considered an evening color, it stood out all the more. The live band present even made me do a little jig and twirl for them, which I happily agreed to.

I’m set for Valentines Day.. and thankfully I do not have issues repeating clothes. Besides my Valentine hasn’t seen it yet so the novelty factor is still intact 😉 Shh..
In case you haven’t picked your V’ day outfit yet, rush to Jabong now!!

Wishing you All A very Happy Valentines this year.. Make this one special.

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Lots of Love,

The Silent Hummer,
Franchua D’Souza

 

She’s into superstitions, black cats and voodoo dolls

Any guesses why this Ricky Martin song title? The answer lies here:

It’s these cats!

Aren’t the cats adorable? Isn’t this top the cutest you’ve seen in a while? Note this is not a sponsored post so I’m not buttering anyone/brand and I genuinely feel this is good stuff.

Stylish Cats

I’m quite an online shopper for those who don’t already know. I tend to browse online shopping sites in my spare time. I even receive a lot of msgs regarding sales or special discounts as I’m registered with most of them. Recently while checking out Shopnineteen, I spotted this top. It’s quite attractive by itself and easily stood out from the lot they had. There are times when looking at something you know you just need to have it. This was one such time. I instantly fell for this catty top.

Catty Top

What’s not to like in it? It’s got cute cats (PS: I’m not a cat lover generally), it’s alive with umpteen colors, it’s got this satin like rich look and feel, and there’s a cute little girly bow at the neckline.

Usually at work we have a strict formal dress code so wearing jeans and a top like this would be inappropriate. Yesterday however we were given the choice to dress as per our wish as we celebrated our office Diwali party. I chose this top obviously, wore it on navy blue jeans, straddled on my bag and did a little cat walk at the office.

Posing with the stylish cats on

OOTD

Have you ever seen a catty girl doing a a laughing buddha pose? Here, look:

Doing the Buddha pose

Some of my colleagues, especially the girls loveeeeeed the top, one even informed me that some time in the near future she will borrow it as she’s very fond of cats. 🙂

OOTD Details:

Cat Print Top- Shopnineteen
Navy Blue Jeans- Jabong
Orange Ballerinas- Zovi
Bag- Esbeda
Bangle and Ring- Mom’s collection

I’m not sure if the pictures do justice to just how cute the top actually is. Let me know what you think.

Do you have anything this cute in your closet? Show me! I’m all for cute.

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Lots of love,

The Silent Hummer
Franchua D’Souza